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Tuesday, September 13, 2005


==> new start Hemelsvuur turned into _psycho_kitten_  probbaly still use this one tho, sometimes


Friday, September 2, 2005


oh my gnomes (dont say i dont have respect for other people believes... eh greg ><)
I dont want to go to work, i hate my job
im sick
why seem everyone i care for just want to play their silly games with me
perhaps they dont think im a humanbeing with feelings
it must be so nice to stab that figurine knife in my heart and dance in the spay of blood, soaking their hair
would it make them immortal like with the blood of a dragon?
interesting thought at 4.30am omg...
and i think i need to talk seriously about the baby stuff in my head
because it starts to haunt me and everyone thinks im very confused or something. blaat ><

Current mood: sick

Friday, August 19, 2005


cant stop listening to this song ><
i got a moodswing and i hate moodswings.
and why did i said yes...
im getting in so much trouble >

Current mood: blaat

Thursday, August 11, 2005


its silent...

Thursday, July 21, 2005


patrick je bent geweldig! knufff
und schnell! nach unsere slutmobile!!!

Wednesday, July 13, 2005


It was nice to have my heart broken again
thank u so much

Current mood: crushed

Friday, July 1, 2005


daaraan wil ik trouwens nog even toevoegen dat mn vader het volgens mij niet van plan was ofzo, niet suididaal whatever.

Friday, June 17, 2005


*waanzinnig van geluk* IEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Current mood: hyper

Friday, June 3, 2005


Ill be gone till next friday
so ill catch up on you all later, if I survive

Current mood: tired

Wednesday, May 25, 2005


Epica preformance in Eden in about 2 weeks
DEMENTIA >< in their prepreformance with 80% change he'd be their said he
and I may come with him in their crew backstage, said he
I think I deserve that (;p) because I designed their bandshirt (see pics.)
but I dont believe it, ill see...

 voorkant shirt
its a little pin up devil with a tritant whitch says Dementia
and audiowaves, they make speed en death metal something like that

detail foto

 de achter kant is een grapje van mezelf
ach ja... er staat One day flies taking over the world (Mhuwhahaha) droogheid

truste ben nogal dood examens blaat...


Current mood: exhausted

Monday, May 23, 2005


ok... hahaha with my examstress I forgot my own birthday >< doh =P

Current mood: rushed

Tuesday, May 10, 2005


o and my last guenna pig (das een cavia ja :D) died today
and my parents dont want any other pets anymore :(

Current mood: disappointed


is it that weird that I want to learn how to give a good erotic/sensual massage??? dont be so prude people... thats so sad...

Current mood: naughty

Sunday, May 8, 2005


The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Current mood: calm

Thursday, May 5, 2005


'ART'Collapse )

Current mood: sick

Monday, May 2, 2005


omg omg im having so much fun with myself right now
haha I found a cd i never listend before
and it has all old skool and dance on it
its so briljant
freestyler! ^^
and stuff

Current mood: giggly

Sunday, April 24, 2005


hm ik heb de disco overleeft
was opzich best leuk
toen het eng werd door dronken jongens die nergens meer van af konden blijven >< ben ik gegaan

nou gister de fantasy fair
ik had nooit gedacht dat mensen ons leuk zouden vinden
maar om de 2 min stonden we stil voor een foto echt super vet ^^
kleine meisjes wilde met mij op de foto en ik voelde me even heel speciaal ^^
en voor we het wisten stonden we op het podium voor de kostuum wedstrijd
ok dan
niet gewonnen hoor maar het was wel super vet ^^
fotos komen nog :)

Current mood: loved

Thursday, April 21, 2005


oooh feeling a bid sad right now
I feel like I lose a bit innocence and naive every day
growing up bah ><

well nighty night to all ^^

Current mood: sad

Tuesday, April 19, 2005



Ancient ritual part 2 (cry of the Amazons)


It’s a haze of Ancient Murderer

It’s a cold summer night

It’s the last Birth from Fire

Maybe just the way He fights


It’s how we survived the Cold Darkness

It’s how we save the Pureness of Soul

It’s how he perpetrated through Fire

It’s the way He teach us all


It’s the ancient God we worship

Without doubt in Labyrinth of mind

It’s a way to live the Cycle

It’s the way of our Divine


Sing sisters! Sing for this night!

Sing for protection sing for our pride

Sing He will save us! Sing for our souls!

Sing for our weakness that frightens us all

Sing for our New Born! Sing for her Goal!

Sing for our God that he may protect us all




Current mood: creative

Sunday, April 17, 2005


Ancient Ritual


Shyness, silence, Porcelain Goddess

wrapped in a misty Cloak

her only protection


‘Don’t  Fear my Dear’


holy Fire burns, awakens Souls

dance before the wild Hunt

a shameless dance


‘Without Fear my Dear’


before me, an ancient Ritual

before I penetrate through Fire

become shameless, Goddess


‘Abandon Fear my Dear’


you’re a ruined Temple at my Feet

get up new born Amazon

go for the wild Hunt


‘A Hunt without Fear my Dear’


Current mood: indescribable

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